See, since Jonah the nine pound baby was born, I've been slightly baby hungry. I felt like I didn't get the tiny, snuggly, sleepy baby time since he came out line-backer and grew off the charts for three months before he finally slowed down.
Let me tell you now, I'm pretty well cured of that particular desire. Being up half the night paying homage to the porcelain god was sufficient to put all such thoughts straight out of my mind. And then, just for good measure, there was a repeat the second night. Just to be sure no lingering wisps of longing were left floating around. If I were Jewish, I'd say oi vey. It was awful.
The most ridiculous part is, I still feel like we've got a sweet baby girl waiting for us to be ready. If someone could just reassure us that it wouldn't be like last time, that I wouldn't have to have someone move in to take care of my family while I was in and out of the hospital, I'd really be open to it. Heck, I'm sure not getting any younger!! And I, for one, had some crazy idea that I'd be done having kids by the time I was thirty.
Pregnancy into my thirties just doesn't sound appealing to me.
The most heart-wrenching part was my sweet Sterling coming and asking if I had a baby in my belly. He had the most hopeful look on his face I've ever seen. He knows he has a sister and keeps asking when she's going to get here. OH! What do I do?
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I say GO FOR IT!
Just think. If you do it now....then you will still be 30 by the time you are due...so get busy!....
That said...please don't ask me to do the same. hehe...i have the same 30 year old goal...and well I still have a year and half...;-)
Welcome to my life right now...doesn't it stink?! And just to defend my pickles and chips...have you tried it when you're pregnant? Weird, yes but very satisfying. I don't know what to tell you about the baby girl thing. We have NEVER felt that "someone's missing" feeling. If I know you (and I think I do pretty well), you'll make it a matter of prayer and do whatever the Lord says.
I wasn't laughing out loud because you're sick....just a funny, familiar predicament.:) I couple of years ago (after I had Hunter and Tanner), I felt certain there was another boy. I thought Haylee was him (not that I wasn't delighted to get a girl....thank goodness). But nonetheless, I still feel there's another boy....I'm just dreading the pregnancy. I get unbearably sick (I think we have that in common...yay for us). Pregnancy and I are not friends; babies and I are. If you come up with a solution, let me know.:)
I totally hear you on this one. No, I am NOT baby hungry - Edward's only seven months old! BUT, I understand not being sure whether or not you are done (that's where I am), and also being very UNenthusiastic about being pregnant in your thirties - ick, ugh, yuck (also where I am). It just seems so...old. But if we have any more (and there's a good chance we might), then I won't have a choice. I'll be thinking long and hard before I do, it, though. And as someone else already commented - you are someone who wouldn't do this without praying about it BIG time, and you are so in tune with the spirit, you'll know what you should do. You may not get the answer right away, but you'll get it. I'm excited to hear someday how this "predicament" turns out... :)
Gavin keeps asking me when his sister is coming. It is so cute. I tell him soon!
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