Do you ever have an awakening moment? Like you're just going along and suddenly you remember something or feel something out of the blue? I did this morning. We just got back from a camping trip in southern Oregon. It was a lot of fun, but it wasn't until we were all working to get things put away and cleaned up this morning that I really felt a closeness as a family. The boys were all out helping clean up the truck my parents let us borrow so we could go and they were getting along so nicely. I was inside and tuned into the Mormon Tabernacle Choir channel on Pandora. The first song that came on was about our Father's love and I was just overwhelmed.
A lot of pretty lousy things have happened since January. First my brother and all that was involved there, then my best friend moving, dealing with mandatory unpaid work days to try to make up for the gigantic state budget deficit, and my van exploding. I decided today that if I really wanted to, I could be very depressed right now. Just one of those events might have pushed me over the edge. Not to mention the pretty lousy weather we're having this year. In years past, having no sunshine for so long would really knock me out, but not this year. This year Someone Else is pulling me along. Someone Else is lifting me above the fog. Someone Else is blessing me with love I'll never understand.
How could Father love me so much? I've made some stupid choices, done some ridiculous things. Why would He still have hope for me?
I can only understand minutely from being a parent myself. I'll love them until they don't let me love them anymore. And I'll still love them. Just like He'll always love me.
5 comments:
You are such a fabulous girl! I don't know how you do it, staying so positive and upbeat . . . you're my inspiration. Seriously, let me know if I can be of service:0) It'll all come together (but you already know that don'tcha?!)
Sweet. Thanks. That's how I feel too sometimes.
Shoot. You totally made me cry! :_ -)
Love those moments. The spirit does amazing things to us to lift us out of the darkness. Those are the moments that keep us going, the moment when we feel closest to Him. Again, LOVE those moments.
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